feeling so blue.......

I hate that I'm being such a whiney navy wife...but I'm really feeling pretty blue these days....feeling neglected and not very loved by the hubby these days.....DH is not a very demonstative man.....and over the last few years we've had our marrige struggles....so it's no surprise that I'm feeling pretty insecure these days..I'd give anything to get an e-mail saying he loves me and misses me...I've even told him so....and yet I have not recieved such an e-mail..yes he HAS been e-mailing and calling...which I am extremely grateful for .as even just THAT is a LOT for hubby to do for me.....there have been times( in the past) when he has not bothered to...so I'm grateful for any e-mails he sends..and he's been doing a pretty good job to e-mail regularly.....but still, it would really help to be told that i'm loved and missed.....I'm trying so hard to be the good Christian woman and rely on God thru this but it's really getting hard...and I'm starting to feel like such a failure..why can't I just trust that God loves me and why can't that be enough for me???

A day late ..but we had a really Nice day yesterday...we invited Britt's boyfriend and his parents over...I was a little nervous..I've 'met" them a few times...but never really sat down and vistited with them.....i was worried how well we'd hit it off....wether they'd 'like' us.( I can be soo insecure sometimes)....but we really hit it off and had a GREAT time...it was hard because of course Brad is not here.....two months down...five more to go!!
I cooked Turkey with stuffing( which came out GREAT..i was surprised..LOL) mashed potatoes....candied yams....broccoli casserole..tortiere( a french canadian meat pie..it's actually a traditional christmas dish but my family has been also making it for thanksgiving as long as I can remember)...2 pumpkin pie...2 chocolate cream pie..


they brought deviled eggs...cracker pie( amazing good) ..cherry pie and sweet potato pie



Brad e-mailed earlier in the day...he'd had his thanksgiving dinner already and it was evening when he was writing....told us a little about his life on the ship....I guess his office is right beneath the flight deck..LOL..he says there are jets taking off 10 feet above his head...the noise is deafening.....their aircraft are going on missions to support the ground troups in Iraq....many of the ships in this battlegroup have been busy intercepting suspicious small merchants(Dhows)..they've seen everything from drugs to dead animals being thrown overboard.....to be honest this bit of info has made me a little nervous....I've been living in denial ... thinking.. oh ..he's totally safe nothing's going to happen to a BIG ole Aircraft carrier....I didn't realize how much in dangers way they could be...i mean i sorta did...but not really....like i said, in denial...head in sand....I still feel fairly confident that's he'll be fine...and nothing will happen but the possibility IS there i guess.....I'm such a pathetic excuse of a "navy wife" ..LOL

He misses home and church...but they are keeping him very busy......he says tooo busy ..but I told him that's probably a 'good" thing right now..it will make the time go faster ....anyway ...that was my thanksgiving......I was hoping i'd get a phone call from him but it was not to be...at least i got the e-mail something I never would have gotten when he was on subs( as they didn't have e-mail when he did his sub deployments)anyway hope everyone else had a nice thanksgiving with family and/or friends!

Bad Blogger

Oh my...I can't believe I haven't posted since the 7th!!! It's been pretty busy around here lately.....which is probably a good thing....takes my mind off DH being gone...well.....not really.....but it makes the time go a little faster at least.....so what have we been up to??....Britty auditioned for District chorus and made it of course( there wasn't much worry about that)but the exciting news was she had the Highest score for her section at her school....and the 2nd highest for her section out of all the schools.......that is pretty good and she was quite proud.....this means she also has a really good chance of making State later...then she had gymnastics tryouts and also made the team....she pretty much knew she would though, because he didn't have enough girls trying out to need to cut anyone....but she feels she's about as good as the rest of the girls, which is a BIG difference from when she was on the team two years ago.....back then, she also made it because there weren't enough girls to cut anyone, but at that time she wasn't that good.....and felt she really didn't contribute to team..she got to compete, but her scores were not added to the team scores....this year ..she'll actually be a full participant and her scores will count....this weekend her coach worked with her and made her a floor routine.....I think she's going to have a lot fun on the team this year........ the routine looks a little sloppy since she was only just learning it......she needs to tighten or refine the routine quite a bit.....there's also a little more to it....they are going to add more at the end...and the parts where she is just jogging across the mat are where they'll add tumbling passes....















This weekend was also a special one for her....it was Ring Dance( basically Junior Prom...but they get their class rings on this night as well...hence the name)......she went with her boyfriend...and 4 other friends.......they all looked soo adorable.....then they all came over to our house for the night afterward.....OH MY.....needless to say I got NO sleep....and was exhusted at church the next day........























































a couple of weeks ago we also went to Poor Clares .....Poor Clare's are a group of cloistered nuns that live just north of Williamsburg in their new monastary....each year we try to take a Pilgrimage to the Monestary with other Parish members..I really enjoy going..it's so peaceful...we join them for Vespers and for the Rosary....then we get to talk to one or two of the nuns.....because they are cloistered...they don't have much interaction with anyone outside the cloister.....they have a special room with a screen ...they stand on one side and we on the other......they live a life of simplicity and poverty and rely on the donations of others for their needs.....

Road Trip!!

Brittney had yesterday and today off from school.....so ......we decided to go on a "girls only" road Trip!!.....we drove up to Va Tech to see my other daughter Rachel......it was a pretty fun trip.....the drive was nice...it's very scenic during the second half of the trip...driving thru the Shenandoans..and with the foliage this time of year.....about 4 1/2 hours( I speed a little...LOL)....then we spent the day with Rachel....her boyfriend Joe ....her roomate Meghan....I took the girls shopping...we dragged poor Joe along...but luckily there were some video game stores to keep him occupied while we looked at shoes and jewelry and such.....then we all went to Dinner at Kabuki's, the Japenese restaurant right next door to our Hotel..and finished the evening at Cold Stone Creamery for IceCream.......this morning we are waiting for Rae to get out of classes and call us ...then we'll have lunch with her and Joe and possibly Meghan....and head back out......I want to get home in time to VOTE!!!

I'll post a few pics of our trip later when I get home...I forgot to take any yesterday once I got here( took a few while we were on the road...not sure how they turned out) so I'll try to get a few today before I leave....

Spent My Day at BeautiU(niversity)

About 2 months ago I signed on as a Beauticontrol Consultant...mostly to get great skincare products at a discount....when you sign up you get half your kit right away and then you get the second half when you attend "BeautiU" a special training session.....well today was the day...I almost blew it off....it started at 8:00am in Va Beach......and I REAAAAAALLY didn't want to get up this morning....and I really wasn't looking forward to the 'training" as I wasn't planning on actually 'selling" this stuff..LOL......but...you don't get the rest of your kit if you don't go so I dragged myself out of bed...and shlept over to the convention center for my BeautiU training......wow.......it was great!!! I got way more out of it then I expected and I'm thinking I might actually want to 'sell' the stuff after all.....

I came home and couldn't wait to finally use my SPA products.....I've had them for a while ...just never made the time to SPA myself........I've been using the regular skincare ....but not all the cool spa treatments....so tonight I treated myself to a little Self SPA.....oh it was heavenly!!!



I started by running a nice warm bath filled with the Theraputic Bath Minerals.....it looks like dull grey powder in the jar but when you throw it in the tub it turns the water a beautiful blue green color and makes the water super silky.....





then I lit some candles....and popped my SPA CD into a portable CD player.......nice soothing sounds and music.....I gather all my other products next to the tub and my fluffy towels..and a nice washcloth.....then I cleansed my face with my Facial Cleanser.....




I climbed into the tub of nice warm ..lightly fragranced water........the first thing I did was use Instant Manicure on my hands and then my feet...it has dead sea salts to exfoliate...and natural oils to moisturize..... then rinsed.....then I moistened my face and neck and spread the Warming Tea Tree Mask on my face and neck...oh did it feel wonderful....it warms up as you start to rub it in.........mmnnnnnnn ...left in on for a few minutes and wiped it off with my damp wash cloth....


Now onto Lip Apeel and Nourishing Eye pads....I started with the bottom half of my jar of Lip APeel....spread it on my lips.....and then placed 1/2 and eye pad on each eye...lay my head back and just relaxed.....for a good 10 minutes..... the lip Apeel is like a mask for you lips and sloughs away flakey lips...LOL




Next wiped off the lip Apeel and removed the eye pads....spread the balm from the top part of my Lip Apeel jar on my lips and soaked for a few more minutes....

it was all soooooooo relaxing.....it's been ages since I've treated myself to a nice leisurely bath.....



upon drying off I slathered Frozen Margarita Foot creme all over my feet and ankles and threw on a pair of comfy cotton socks....I'm still feeling the effects ..........then slathered Moisturizing Mineral Lotion all over.....put on my comfy PJ's and then finished my skincare routine... and finally finished with a slathering of Regeneration Extreme Repair Hand therapy.....





I feel like a QUEEN!! I have GOT to do this more often....my plan is to treat myself to a Self Spa every weekend....I realize I REALLY need to start taking better care of myself....that was actually one of the things I wanted to work on while hubby was deployed...taking the time to start taking care of myself.....I've got to be honest...I've been lazy the last few years and really have let myself go....not just the weight.....but my appearance as well...it's too easy to just shlepp around in sweats with messy hair and no makeup.....so one goal of this deployment is to take time everyweek for a major 'beauti" treatment......and to try to add small beauti habits to my daily routines....

Deployment Blues

I really shouldn't say blues....I'm feeling much better lately.....I still have my moments...but I think I've gotten past most of the 'blues".....One month down....6 more to go.....this first month went by pretty quickly.....hopefully the next 6 will as well....luckily the hubby has been able to call pretty often...so far he's called about once a week or so...although it's been a while since his last call....I have a feeling the phonecalls will be few and far between from now on.....the first few weeks they spent a lot of time in portcalls....he got to go to Rome( even if it was only for 4 hours) he went to the Vatican and got to see the Tomb of Pope John Paul....he also went to Pompeii...and to Cyprus......yeah rough life...LOL........it took all my strength to keep a smile on my face and be enthusiastic for his good fortune at being able to see these places.......maybe one day I'll get to see them too......On the Other hand I woudn't trade being stuck on that ship for anything!!...he says they are keeping him VERY busy....TOO busy...but that's probably a 'good' thing.....it will make the time go faster for him if he's kept too busy to think about it...

Secret Mail...of the best kind!!

Wednesday night when Britt and I got home from Mass(All Saints Day-Holy Day of
Obligation)..there was a strange box on our porch...what on earth is that? I asked.....hmmnnn.......why a package from my SP9 Pal..........and itwas fillled with this lovely goodness: there's a couple of New sock Yarns for me
to make some new socks...and .........














a bunch of sock scraps for my Deployment Blanket..... yippeee......so far I was able to add 4 more squares to my blanket!!!! Do you recognize the yarns SP9 pal??? the two large blocks are yours....the red one...the one next to the red one and the one below that one....I'm still a little behind......I'm working on a pair of socks now so I can use those scraps...hopefully there'll be enough left to make a small square....so far it looks like there probably will be.... I'm still interested in scraps ..if anyone would like to send me some...I guess they call this "yarn whoring"....


and here's the latest socks on the sticks: